Finding My Wings

Christmas and Vampires

2011-11-18T20:45:00.000-08:00

Yes, I am one of those people.

I have already started decorating for Christmas, and it all started a few days ago, a week and half before Thanksgiving.

THAT is dedication people!

Oh and on a completely different note, The 4th movie installment for the twilight saga Breaking Dawn Pt 1 was SPECTACULAR!!!!!

All the others were mediocre but this(and im saying this whole-heartedly) was THE best movie i have ever seen. Paralleled the book in almost every way and did the story justice... FINALLY. :)

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

2011-11-15T23:29:00.000-08:00

1. It finally started snowing outside, and this time i think its staying till April.

2. The 4th installment in the Twilight movies is coming out Thursday at midnight and yes, i will be one of those crazed people waiting at the movie theater.

3. Ive been wanting to take up crochet for a long time. There is just something about being able to make your own blankets, hats, scarves etc. thats always appealed to me and i finally bought myself a hook and yarn and i made my first crochet chain!!...but then i tried to do the 2nd row..safe to say it failed..miserably :(. oh well, i will just have one of my more experienced friends show me the tricks of the trade.

4. im now looking for yet ANOTHER job. Oh Lord have mercy on me in my search, I need to have at least some funds for spring semester, at least until i can get a job there. The Lord provides. "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you a hope and a future.." well, there you go.

5. I HOPE we can go to Michigan for New Years and visit my sisters. I miss them so much and I could use some encouragement from them about college. They are so wise and they almost always have the right thing to say even if sometimes i dont want to hear it. i love them :)

6. Ive been off of facebook for a little over a month now..?? i think? not to sure but specifics dont matter. I love the freedom i feel from it, not so ingested in everyones lives but instead, im living my own and getting things done and organizing my lists. I can go to bed feeling accomplished :)

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, lucky #7. I have decided to not pursue any relationship with any guy at school, passed a friendship, for at least my whole first semester. I dont want to be distracted and absorbed into a guy and lose focus on God or my school work, i refuse to be led astray. and If the right guy does come along, he will have no problem waiting :)

ok I think thats it for now. Hoping to post some pics soon! Peace and Love

p.s. havent been keeping up too well on my diet and exercise...tomorrow will make up for that hopefully. yay Pilates!!!

Making the most of it

2011-10-31T20:49:00.000-07:00

so in this time before i head off to school and being unemployed i get so sort through all the "stuff" piling up in my head, room, and life.

In my head: for instance, I made to-do lists today! Movies I want to see, books i want to read, and things i need to get. It actually had a lot of mental relief and that's always a good thing :)

In my room: Get rid of all the high school crap! and all the little giz-mos and hoo-has that i just don't need and haven't even looked at in years. as well as letters and pictures with people i no longer talk to. lots of space now...for all my other crap.

In my life: i'm definitely finding out who my true friends are. And im "weeding" the negative people out of my life. It is getting hard because some of them i grew close to and have come to realize they can't be trusted and its a rocky road to tread, but a necessary road to go down.

and one thing that i want to make the most of with my time is weight-loss.
Before i go off to school in 2 months, i want to look, feel and BE healthy!
it will just be a good way of starting over. Tomorrow is October 1st and my 1st official day of diet and exercise! so wish me luck!

ill write more later.

COLLEGE BOUND!!...again.

2011-10-27T17:58:00.000-07:00

Well I'm not leaving yet, But it is official:

I have been accepted to the University of North Dakota, home of the Fighting Sioux! :) and I'm so excited to finally have direction.

Last weekend I went back to Oak Hills for "Soul Cleanup" which is a day help each semester where classes are canceled and instead there are speakers, praise and worship and everyone prepares the campus for winter. I have a marvelous time and after the lovely nostalgic weekend, I considered going back next semester to OHCC.

But after realizing that I shouldn't make such and important decision that fast and based on a magical couple of days.
And as soon as I got home, I found that I had received my acceptance letter, while I had been gone.
That was good enough for me. I'm going to UND! :)
I already met the lovely girl I will eventually call my roommate, Laura. Im very excited to see what God makes of that relationship.

I've sworn off men for a while. This is the time to focus on me and i don't need any distractions or anyone holding me back or tying me down.

Im ready for this.
Im ready for the future.
Im ready for the next phase.
Im ready for change.

What does God want?

2011-10-17T22:08:00.000-07:00

What does God want? I haven't asked myself that in so long.

probably because when i used to ask that all the time, I never seemed to get an answer. So eventually i stopped asking. So ever since i've just been doing what makes sense to me.

but I'm just more confused than ever.
so im ready to stop and ask again.
i just need to find my quiet place.

the C word

2011-10-11T22:32:00.000-07:00

ahh yes. the "c" word.
college.
I got back on Sunday from my weekend at UND(north dakota). I went to sort out problems they were having with my paper work and had a tour of campus and stayed with a good friend who attends there. Between the tour and what shes shown me of the college, im blown away, i love it so much and cant wait to get back to school and be productive! i do have some worries however.
I do NOT want to get involved with someone. They will only destract me from my studies and focusing on God.
secondly, I want the right friends. Christian students or mentors to encourage me in my faith walk and hold me accountable.
and last, i want a job part time so i may also make money and not just be spending it constantly and building up my student loans. God please help me with my students loans!

but overall i am very excited for this next phase in my life and i pray that it brings about good things and positive experiences.

hope to write more soon.

and in addition!

2011-10-03T21:21:00.000-07:00

may I add that I won that scrabble match mentioned earlier :)

but anyways, God has been GREAT. I have a new job, one with exceptionally pay and 40/hrs a week. He is so good. I know He is in control but i cant help throwing hissy fits sometimes and acting like i have it all together when i just don't.

November is coming up and Im dreading what emotions the anniversary of my dad's passing will bring up. for everyone. Its so hard to believe its been one year already. Its been a HARD and GRUELING one but the whole idea of him really being gone is still alien to me. I know i'll see him again one day, but for now all I have is that hope.

My broth Justin is now officially moved in with us so that is good. great actually. Now I dont have to worry about my mom during the winter and trying to drive back every weekend from college to check on her. I i dont have to worry about shoveling the snow for her, or making sure she has enough fire wood. I finally have help and that is so comforting to me...

Ill write more soon!

Digital Detox

2011-10-03T21:01:00.000-07:00

Last night i decided to delete my Facebook. FINALLY! It was probably one of the smarter things I've ever done. Facebook has taken over peoples lives and i refuse to be addicted to it. It was hard for me even to delete it. and that is bad.and secondly, no family should spend more time in separate rooms, on separate computers then they do actually together. which is why tonight i told my mom and brother we needed to play a game of scrabble, have quality family time.Which worked for a while... until the game was over. now guess where everyone is? in separate rooms.on separate computers.what has the modern day family become?

stuck in the middle of an oreo

2011-08-21T21:32:00.000-07:00

as i look at this oreo i realize that i have so much in common with it.
the first half of the oreo was the first year in college and the other chocolate cookie side is the rest of college.
and right now im just stuck in between both segments.
blah....white "blah"-ness.

and there is just so much else.

I wish my dad would talk to me on the phone for more than just 3 minutes a month.
He says he misses me but it just doesnt seem like it.

and

its so hard to be patient.
with people...
with God....
with men...
in walmart...
at work....
with men...
...and walmart.

and I wish my step dad was still here. Im so lost as to what i need to do for school and what paperwork I need and how to handle financial aid and how to even mow the lawn and just a crap-ton of other stuff that i have no idea how to do.

its just harder this way.

this blog is nice to write too. it helps me vent but its not like anyone really cares or is reading what i have to write anyways so...

it seems pretty damn pointless if ya ask me. :/

transitions

2011-08-14T22:08:00.000-07:00

YWAM emailed me back and let me know that I was accepted to their program. But After much deliberation decided that it was not the proper time to go. My mom needs me and I wouldnt be able to leave her alone all winter,

I couldnt do that to her.

I have a new job. HALLELUJAH! Lord know I need the funds.

I want to be financially self sufficient and pay off debts.

Everyone is leaving to go back to school. Some I will miss. some I wont. Some I will cry over irrationally. But this time apart will be good. very good...I hope.

Its all in Gods hands.

patience is a virtue

2011-06-09T20:18:00.000-07:00

No news yet from YWAM, but I'm eagerly awaiting their reply.
I think God is definitly trying tyo teach me patience through this situation...
I realize it has only been 4 days but that is exactly my point. Im just so hyped up to find out if this trip is happening for sure. I havent felt direction like this in a long time. which is great after months and months feeling like a compass on top of a magnet, just going in circles in all different directions, horizons, and possibilities.

I will just have to keep reminding myself what my favorite book says..."11 For I know the plans I have for you,..plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

and im holding on to that and verse 12 "Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. " ...and OH, am I seeking you, or at least trying to.

Fixing the broken Compass

2011-06-05T18:01:00.000-07:00

For the first time in a long time I feel like I have direction again.

I applied for YWAM University of the Nations based in Herrnhut, Germany DTS. Im praying this is in Gods plan for me, and it makes sense that it would be. I would be traveling all over central Europe, learning and growing and developing in all areas of life as well as with God.

Ever since my stepdad passed away I have been very lost and unclear on what God wanted for my life. the plan I had in mind had chanmged entirely becuase there were all new factors to consider. Life had changed and so did I.

But within the last few weeks I have been really praying and thinking about whats next. YWAM has been on my mind for a while. Today I decided to research different DTSs and I found Go Europe Mobile DTS and just applied. It seemed to works so smootly and I have a calm about it like im on the right path. and Im praying Im going in the right direction. Im hoping if it wasnt from God then it wouldnt feel right or be working out or I wouldnt have as much support as I do. But its been a few hours and Im done with applying, sent reference forms and I already have so much prayer support and encouragement from people. But im hoping that if its not meant to be, the door is shut soon. But we shall see where this road leads!

15 What is beauty?

2010-08-09T23:26:00.000-07:00

True beauty is in the way she laughs
is in her eyes
is how she acts
is inside
is unseen
is only felt
is not mean
is herself
can't be cruel
is bare
within you
is always there
can't be covered with makeup
means true love
can't be baked up
is the flight of a dove
has no flaws
For True beauty is all that matters after all

14 Life Liberty and The Pursuit of Happiness

2010-07-06T20:23:00.000-07:00

Life
Im almost ready for college. but Im still so lost on what to do. I love music, but dont know or understand chords. Im trying to find a guitar but no luck. I love intercultural studies and I want to travel SO BAD! but you can't make a living or support a family with that. I want to do small business so I can have my own spa one day, but I hate the idea of all the technical crap.im so lost. All I do know is that I want to be a wife and mother. and i will be a damn good one too.

Liberty
Well, Im 18 now. Its different. The world hands you a lot of responsibility some you don't expect. You're tested in many ways. There are some moments when I question "What if I just went outside started my car and just drove somewhere, I don't know where or care, just went?" " what's waiting for me?" there is so much I want to do and experience, but I would hurt too many people if I did what I really wanted. Even if I am 18, and I CAN legally do whatever I want (besides drink), and no matter how much I want to do some things, the world will find a way to stop me. Is life always so limited? or should we all say "to hell with inhibitions! For once I will do what I want even if it turns out bad. In the end, I followed my heart and what i wanted most. and I will never regret it. " I know I wont be in my death bed think " I wish i did this...I wanted to do that..."

I KNOW some people would and will interpret this differently. but I honestly don't care. I will no longer be held back. Im sorry if you think Im wrong, but opinions only go so far. ...

The Pursuit of Happiness
I want to Travel the WOrld and one day, I swear to God himself, that I will.

13 minus 7 is 6 Months Later

2010-06-12T22:31:00.000-07:00

Well, ahem...its halfway through 2010. Im graduated, and it all came and went too fast it seems.
In a little over 2 months I will be going off to College, starting a new phase. I am still wanting to hang on to the old one. My comfort zone. My Snuggie Zone.

I have been blessed by others with monetary gifts for graduation and this helps with the process of getting a car and paying for college. But I still need to work as much as i can for as long as I can.

I'm working towards our Alaska trip later this summer. Its something to look forward to in the near future. We're flying in to Seattle. I loved it there and i haven't been to that part of the world in a long time...it will be so nice to be there again, even if its for a little while. like 2 hrs... but its still nice just to see it... and to get out of this town for a while. A small town is nice and all but I LOVE traveling and seeing and experiencing new things. If I had the money, I would travel all the time, but as the world is I can't. Maybe, someday.

Speaking of Someday, I decided that the day after my wedding, im going to go four-wheeling in my wedding dress. I know, you might be saying WHAT THE HECK? Why would you do that? Just waste all that money and ruin a gown that you could give to some one else? well.. no. I am buying an already worn dress. and I planned to take apart the dress anyways for home decor. incorporation... yay for planning ahead of time :)

Daniel is good. and that's that. He is doing his own thing too. Choosing what he wants from life and just doing what he needs to do.

Gabriel. A mew friend since I last updated . He needs his own blog post. I will write more soon. and not in 6 months....Im sorry.

12 All the Wii into 2010

2010-01-01T17:25:00.000-08:00

I'm so excited that it is 2010. Its the start of a whole new year and the year I graduate! hah! But when midnight came and millions of people kissed to celebrate, Daniel wasn't here. oh by the way Im in Michigan for the new year, so he was a little far way... But the last week in school I was nominated for Snow Queen (like winter homecoming) and i didnt have a dress. but thanks to the generosity of my step sister's sister-in-law, I now have a dress! She is lending me her beautiful blue gown she wore for prom last year. Luckily we are the same size and have very similar taste in dresses... Right now I am in the living room at Hannah and Kaleb's with family. They are playing the Wii. I have never played before so that will be a new and interesting experience for sure...they are virtual bowling and im good at bowling so thanks to my dad, I have an advantage i think...THANKS DADDY for teaching me how to bowl!

11 Oh Danny Boy

2009-12-16T18:58:00.000-08:00

I am so sorry but i have not written in my blog for the longest time. So much has happened over the last few months. But all that happened is past so there is no point in dwelling about it on here. I will just tell you about the recent past and the hope to be near future...and the far ahead future.

School is very hard but, i am giving it all i can. I have an AP geo project powerpoint on religion due tomorrow. then a paper due next week on the interactions between Judaism and Islam. happy happy joy joy. I just finished ny AP english essay on Chaucer's "The Canterbury tales". I had to prepare a lesson wher ewe read a sonnet to the class tomorrow and interpret what it means. I have MANY more projects to finish and essays to write by next week. prayers are appreciated.

One sad event in recent history is that it was discovered that i actually wont be able to raise enough money to go to Europe. It is really heartbreaking, and some of you may ask why? what in the world is soo appealing about Spain, France, and Germany? well, thats ok..because honestly i don't care what most opinions are about europe, i love it. you can deal. im sorry if thats blunt or offensive, but you cant explain it when your heart is just somewhere.
However, there IS an alternative now. Instead, my parents are taking me on a cruise to Alaska for graduation. I wont get to go to the Louvre, but i will be able to see the Van Gough art exhibit they have on board the ship! why they would put MILLIONS of dollars worth of paintings on a ship that could sink...i dont know. but Im fine with it if they are.

ok so. On a completely different note. Lets talk about love lives.
I dont have one-except with God-and thats ok. Although i wont lie, I have become good friends with a guy who would make an AMAZING boyfriend(and eventual spouse for someone). However, i dont know where he is at with God. A LOT (majority) of you are probably saying to yourselves "oh, thats not good, rule him out, take him off you list, make him walk the plank", or something to that effect. Yes, i understand that is the most important thing and NO, i wont date someone that does not have a relationship with Christ as strong as mine, unless they are even closer him(which is really hot). God comes first. This guy, lets name Daniel, for the sake of privacy. well, danny boy and I are good friends, but that doesnt stop girls from liking him. Honestly, i get jealous and we arent even "together". I feel like this is very "junior high-ish" written out, but there are a lot of factors that complicate things and make it a very difficult situation when others interfere in our friendship. A lot or people would rather him just be single than in a relationship with someone other than them.

Well, thats some of the current life in a nutshell.
and Christmas is coming!!

write more soon (hopefully).

10 Hope and Heartache

2009-09-21T19:44:00.000-07:00

HOPE : Well, tonight at work someone could have possibly been made very rich. A customer came in and was paying for gas. The conversation (condensed) consisted of that the customer had inherited A LOT of money-the stock to all iron ore in northern MN. The Stock and Bond papers looked real. I don't know what to make of it. I hope he wasn't a nut case. He supposedly already gave A LOT of money away to those who need it. ...again ...I don't know...He wants to get my friend out of her debt. I pray he comes through for her....God please be in this situation.

HEARTACHE: And for another update. I went out on a date about two weeks about with a friend. Ironically, its cliche i know, he is captain of the football team and I'm captain of the cheerleading squad. HA! and i thought i wouldn't give in to high school stereotypes...anyways, it went good, but i knew beforehand that the relationship wasn't gonna go anywhere. But apparently he didn't.I had gotten his hopes up and let him down. We are still friends but i just don't see the point in just inviting in high school heartache and a lot of wasted time for a relatioship. Dont get me wrong- my friend is a great guy, and i love LOVE but, he is meant for someone else and Im not ready to be somebody's someone....

P.s. I have a lot of hard AP (advanced placement) classes and I don't want to get overworked and overspent on energy. Please pray for me. Blessings Galore on you

09 love is here

2009-09-04T12:31:00.000-07:00

I got a puppy.
Charlotte Love is her name. She is a Pekingese Yorkshire Dockson and possibly the cutest thing I've seen in my Life.

Well today i just have random thoughts that i just want to get out.
-Im watching Project runway and I come up with designs for dresses, that are so much prettier that a lot of the onesa that are on there, o just can not sew to save my life. Hopefully that will change one day.

-Senior Year starts officially on this next Tuesday. I'm so incredibly happy to finally start because well, I've been waiting to be a senior for my entire Schooling career. But its scary too because it is a REALLY important year and not just for school. I need to be a person that made a difference in the lives of her school mates. i dont want to be dispersed at the end of the year thinking, i wish i said this to them, and that to this person. I Don't want to regret the person i was for them.

- i got a job. I got a job to get money to go to Spain, France , and Germany. BUT, i need a car. and if i get a car, I'll have to pay for gas, insurance, repairs, etc. If i do that, i will not have enough money to go to Europe next summer. It tears me up inside to think that my peers will be in PARIS while I'm still sitting in BD, Minnesota. I'm sorry, but i am too in love with Europe already to pass up the chance to go. I would forever regret it if i didn't go. "oh, you will get over it" NO! you do not understand the love i have for their culture, architecture, languages, Fashion, art, and everything that surrounds it. the history alone, is something to love. Its an affection I cant really control, I just love it

08 Miracles on Northpoint Lane

2009-08-24T12:18:00.000-07:00

Well, on saturday my mom and I went to Pioneer/Farmer's Festival. There was a tractor parade. You cant get much more small town than that.
But, that isn't the reason behind this story. It begins when we got home.
Mom and i arrived home around 5-ish and it was a long day. I was tired and hungry, by no means ready for something significant to happen. God always has other plans. She was going through the mail and pulled out a big packet from Northwestern College- a college i could only dream of going to. "wow, these people must really want you." Northwestern has been sending me a lot of mail lately.
I opened it and the 3 Miracles started from there.
1:Inside the the packet there was an admission application, All my recommendation forms I'd need to give to my superiors,an informational on majors lookbook, and a letter telling me that they want me to apply because I have "Skills, the ability, and attitude" to attend their college. the sum total of the packet is $4o. they sent it to me for free.
2:NWC is an expensive college of $30,000 dallars a year. and my family just does not have that king of money. But, While i was looking at the "Financial aid" section of the info book, and there is a 10% tuition discount for students if either of thier parent work in Ministry! Two of my Three do! my Stepdad is a pastor and christian educator, and my mom is a church office manager...amazing. Not to mention the numerous scholarships I qualify for.
3:I had been worried about my ACT score. I took the test my junior year and scored a 19. i know. Not many colleges accept students with that low of a score. I am not by anymeans a slow student. I am just not good with big pressure tests. But, in another section of the info book it stated that to attend NWC, you must have an ACT score of at least 18!... GOD IS AMAZING!!

when i foung this out, i just about peed myself(not literal). I went and told my mom and started to cry...

There is a three-week turn around for acceptance letters for the people who received those packets...and i am praying with all my heart that i am accepted to Northwestern College. Its too perfect to not be for me...

07 Rain Drops

2009-08-10T21:52:00.000-07:00

" Rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens, bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens, brown paper packages tied up with string, these are a few of my favorite things".....

I absolutely love The Sound of Music. The story itself is so great. I grew up watching this movie. Every time i was scared or sick or even just bored, i would watch it and feel so much better. Some people completely loath it and think its just a cheesy smile-n-sing fest, when its not. I don't know why self-proclaimed "open-minded" people, shut it out...i guess they are just dumb and culturally deprived.

do you agree?

p.s. Barack Obama should watch this movie. He needs a little "Do Re Mi" if you know what i mean... :D

06 Work in progress

2009-07-30T13:02:00.000-07:00

Im a teenager with a social life+A social life costs money+And I have none=JOB SEARCH!

yea..And im highly considering the local drug store. It is a convienent location, close to school so i can go there right after it lets out. My calculator shows that it will take about two months to save up for a car..a good junk car. But thats ok. Its my first car and if i get into a car accident(which i pray i dont) I wont have to repair a really nice car.
I will also have to contribute to the insurance payments and of course, pay for gas. Im going to be working my butt off but it is a nessecary thing to get started on my own life. the next step to independance. I will have to learn about paying bills, managing my money and saving it.
This next year is going to be a real challenge. I'll need to make choices between what is right, and what is easy. But if i want to be a strong, independant adult, it is a step that i am willing to take...God always provides a way.

Amelia

05 Make a Wish

2009-07-23T16:33:00.000-07:00

Kelsie Roth. Beautiful. Caring. a Best Friend.

she is such a blessing to me... The most heartfelt thought anyone has ever put into making a birthday special..She had me write everything that i love down on a piece of paper and she made me a huge birthday card with everything i love. she drew things, cut them out of magazines and made a collage of it all. 6-7 hours of labor to make my birthday special...not including the awesome childhood fort she made in her bedroom for us... we made those together when we were little... She is so amazing and i would never ask for anyone different.

Thank you love

04 Say Cheese

2009-07-22T15:52:00.000-07:00

My brother Justin is a Photographer and yesterday he was nice enough to take some of my senior pictures...for free, i might add...and so that got me thinking about all the stuff the people in my family can do. and you know what? planning my wedding(when comes time) is going to be a breeze!

I have a brother to take pictures.
Another brother to handle where the plands and landscaping goes.
A mother who does flower arrangments and is church office manager.
A stepdad who is a pastor.
A sister-in-law who loves to bake.
A Dad who could print the invitations.
Another sister-in-law who is a seamstress and could help w/ the dress....

i've got it made....thank you God!

03 new days more tomorrows

2009-07-18T08:32:00.000-07:00

I realize my last post was a bit intense, but I have gotten really fed up with the types of people mentioned in there. But i still love them. I'm not perfect, just honest...

Well, on a happy note, today Im going to the beach with Dane, Kayla & Penelope to the beach(my bro and his Family). This will be good because i have only been to the beach twice since i have been in Florida. And i only have about 3 weeks left so i better get cracken....

02: A little white truth

2009-07-16T14:59:00.000-07:00

In the world of teenagers, everyone you talk to claims to be "original", "unique", and they say they have something new to offer...

From what i have seen, these are the people who give in the most to Social Culture. People always try and associate themselves with a "higher class" by appearance, attitiude, or even just an all-over fake facade. "omg! i love Hollister" they want to fit in, or "TWLOHA, is amazing!" when they have know idea the story behind it, they just know that everyone is wearing it...

This is elementary and junior high stuff people!!! let alone you doing it when we are in High school and even some of you in College.

I am not saying everyone who wears brand Names and TWLOHA is a conformist pig. People who find their entire identity in it though... the people that dont even know what THEY like any more... or just an attachment to material things....it can all burn, but who you are cant. niether am I saying that you are not unique...Everyone is. God designed everyone differently.

Whether you agree/believe or not, God created you and He knows what will happen in your life.
He knit you together inside your mother's womb. He knows you better than you know yourself.

To know the Lord is to know yourself. I can vouch for that and can give you many people to contact that can say that the Lord has done the same thing in their lives.

Humanity can deny it till they are blue in the face, but God is the answer to any struggle, addiction, fight, doubt, anything...

"how can you say that? the world is burning and God just sits there and does nothing!"
My answer:

Say a man is having trouble with his truck and the engine is just shot to hell...He takes it to a Mechanic.. he comes back a couple hours later and his engine is spread out over this long table, broken into all these different oil and sludge-covered peices...he cant tell what is what...but the Mechanic can see this "mess" but He sees how it all fits together when we cant. God is the world's Mechanic and he renews all the ''filth-covered" broken peices, cleanses them, and puts them back together in a way that we ignorant people wouldnt have been capable of imagining...

And for those of you who say "well, thats all grand and what not...but Im content with my life and everything is pretty much going great, so...God can do His thing but I'll do mine..."
Your life may seem content, but when your world does crash and burn , which i can promise you will happen without the presence of Jesus Christ, you will have nowhere else to turn but the arms of Jesus, someone who loves you more than you could possibly encounter in the world.

And for the ones who think " i'll turn to God when my life is over so i dont go to Hell. He wants to control it too much, i want control of my own life and im going to enjoy it while i can"...the Bible says that our days our numbered and YES life is too short to make the mistake of not giving your heart to God. How many times have you known or heard of a person dying in a car accident...Obviously unplanned.. I have known way too many.

Simply telling Christ that you realize that you need Him in your life. You may not be broken or damaged, you may be lost with everything and not know how you are but if you just ask Him to come into your life and do whatever he needs to do to make it right, will change your life. Just come to Him whole heartedly. Get youself a good Bible, I recomend NIV Life Application Study Bible, its amazing.

then when you finally know God, you will finally know yourself...

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